[`+] [[ yarrr, im 21. =.= ]]
[`+] [[ im jiemei. ]]
[`+] [[ jaamie. ]]
[`+] [[ yearnsforsimplelife ]]
[`+] [[ awaitingformyfuture ]]
home after school; accompanied mummy to shop; out with daddy and mummy for dinner; bought mummy her-long-wanted wallet; help daddy with his task; stay super patience with my brothers; i just think im a super good girl recently.
it's just all the small actions, which i feels so satisfied with myself. (=
i know, im being love. i know, im being dote on. i know, im being care.
just, it's the method used. at times, i just doesnt appreciate and dont understand at all, why it must be that way; why continue knowing that it's incorrect. hence, i complain, flare up, throw tantrum. aftermath, i sit down and ponder through; actually, it's not that worst. they've their own stand. i think, i just have to admit. i need alot of attention; feels jealous when the treatment is totally opposite. but well, that's life. therefore, i learn to be independent. And without realising, i make them proud of me. that's jm's family.
im always trying to be positive. i love to care. i tends to observe. i enjoys being a listener.
i never want to reply "oh, oh" and still "oh" when you whine to me your problems. that's why, "enlightening" & nagging is a way for me to show that i get what you went through. it's really very true. i'll laugh when you smile. i'll cry when you're sad. i'll be down, when you get scolded. i can say, i learn to keep my facial expression well. who doesnt have a problems? all along, been trying hard to perform, all that commitment, this willingness, those initiative and the sincere that ive been emphasising on. definitely, i know my limit. i didnt score 100%, not even know whether i pass. but i can swear, i did my utmost best. without any doubt, i want it, as a lifetime thingy. sad to say, to me, it's reciprocal. i place utmost effort on you, yet if i were to be treated like shit, i will, hate to, but say bye. cause, it aches to hang on alone. my energy level is declining rapidly. that's jm's friendship.
i dont deny, im kinda stubborn. i got to learn things in a hard way, only to realise, things dont work. i dont deny too, im quite an emotional fellow too. i dont easily tear, but i do use laughters and smiles to fake through.
i get to know, when there's time to say arloe, definitely there's time to bid farewell. forever, is illusion. just part and parcel of life. face it, live it on.
to live happily, and bring joys around; is my resolution! (=
*above hair is a past-tense.