[`+] [[ yarrr, im 21. =.= ]]
[`+] [[ im jiemei. ]]
[`+] [[ jaamie. ]]
[`+] [[ yearnsforsimplelife ]]
[`+] [[ awaitingformyfuture ]]
sign in:11:08am
i been leading a no life for like at least 2 months. attachements are simply so bored.
well, bored as in, the tasks given, everyday are the same. though i enjoyed lifestyle that are well-planned, but doesnt mean i love lifestyle that doing things that are the same EVERYDAY. and i mean typically everyday. only BORED and SLEEPY can describe the feeling.
that's y i dint blogg.
my life is just like getting more and more, b o r i n g.
i getting more and more n o l i f e at all.
friends do date me out, but unexpected thing happened, events is cancelled.
friends do date me out, but i was too tired, i rejected.
I APOLOGISED.
ARGG.
let's recite my lifestyle.
mon - fri = attachment, earning that $500/month.
sat = got up early to teach phonic.
sun = work, earning that $5.50/hour, working 12hour/day.
omg. i find myself so earning money that my life is so empty.
attachment, there's no choice. i nid the marks to graduate. teaching those young kids make my weekend and everyweek more enjoyable. those kids are not attentive, but their naive wont make u have "fang bei" with them. u can chat with them happily and seeing them, make u smile as well. working on sun is also another no choice thing. cos no enuff worker, too many stores.
i feel tired. but pls understand peeps.
i bet u all mus be saying that, "just quit lah." i do think of that. but, something are jus not as easy done. there's feeling for that job, perhaps i stayed too long. there's feeling for my boss and lady boss, they treat me jus like their daughter (not only to me, they treat my mummy very well too, those who dunno, my mummy work for them before too.) and now, they not enuff ppl, how can i jus say quit and i quit?
it's jus not that EASY to open mouth.
with this no life days, i do ponder alot. over the past, over present, over my future.
past, made me miss everyone that passed thru my life, that "happening" in my life.
present, my lovely princesses, and also not to forget, my poly freakos. yes, FREAK.
future, i see no future. i cant get anything when i pondered for a future. so i decided, "zou yi bu, suan yi bu". "qian tu, wen guang mang eh".
ARGG. i feel like crying at times, esp when missing u guys. cry for the happiness moments, cry for the sad we see in each other friend, cry for wadeva we been thru together. nevertheless, cry for that, i miss u all. and also CRY FOR the carefreeness and freedom whenever im with u guys.
my life is so terrible messy. not for u to see, but for me i noe.
i do cherish u all. be it, in the past, NOW, and i will continue till jiemei doesnt appear anymore.
though we seldom meet, seldom call each other for chats, seldom msg each other for greetings, and everythings jus flow and seems like we seldom care and concern for each other, and might leads to thinking that, each of us have our own life, doesnt need each other anymore. BUT, YOU ARE ALL IN MY HEART AND MINDS AT ALL TIMES. not forgetting.
- a sentence that always seen. but it's true to me. =)
i miss and love ya ppl.
*entry might be messy. cos i jus threw everything that's in my pondering state.
sign out: 11:22am